Silence

Aren't these children the cutest things you have ever seen?So right now I should be writing a proposal for a paper I have to write in the future. But I find that I just cannot decide on a topic so instead I am sitting here writing this while talking on AIM to some friends and listening to my iTunes. I am getting so much done. I haven't ever written a formal propsal for a paper before and this paper is not a good one to start with. Truthfully I just want to get it done with so I can be one step closer to getting everything done so I can spend an entire week with the 30 kids I love more than anything in the world. I cannot wait to be there Friday can not come soon enough. I have so much I want to do next week, I don't think it will possible to do it all. I cannot wait to be with these kids and to hold and play with them. I am so greatful that God has showed me a love like I have for them and showed me that there is a plan for my future if I just follow him. Even though his plan may not happen in my timing it will happen when it needs to and Haiti and I will collide for a lot longer than a week. I love how God works its so crazy. I love the words to this song so I thought I would share.
God doesn't always call the equipped but
He will equip the called
He know everything that we need to make sense of it all
He'll work through our weakness
If we depend upon the Lord because
If he says to do it we will have his full support

I just love the words right there because they are true. We all have doubts about whether or not we are making the right decisions at time but I know that if I am doing what I believe God wants than he will help me through everything.

Please pray for me and the people who are traveling with me on this trip. I do have to tell you the reason why I titled this Silence. It isn't because for the next week there will be no silence it is because I have being trying to practice silence. I want to be able to just sit back and watch what God is doing and hear what he is saying. Silence before the storm, is what I like to think about my life. I need to enjoy all the silence and peace that God can give me so when storms come I can better handle them and know I can depend on him. So next week that will be the continuation on the silence a.k.a. the peace and happiness that I have before I come back here to the United States and have to get back to living life and going to school.

Haiti though not silent is my silence.

Food for Thought

So I couldn't decide what to write on my blog because no profound thoughts have hit me in the last few days. haha. So I stole some quotes from other people and have decided to share them with you along with this amazing picture of Guerda.






Happiness is like Jam - You can't spread even a little without getting some on yourself.

Where God's love is, there is no fear, because God's perfect love drives out fear. 1 John 4:18
That is one of my very favorite scriptures.

Good Communication is as stimulating as black coffee and just as hard to sleep after.
- Anne Morrow Lindbergh
That quote is so true. No I don't drink coffee and I only have a few times but I know the affects that to much coffee can have. As far as communication I love talking to my friends and I don't mean the hi how are you kind of talks. I love the deep conversations about life and the bible.

Christian is a great noun but a poor adjective.
This is extremly true and I think to many people add christian into a list of traits about themselves instead of making it the center of thier life.

Don't place God as number one in your life. He should be YOUR LIFE!!!
- Nazarene Youth Conference '03
THere are no other words to say except for I love this quote alot.

Others believe it when they see it, Christians see it because they believe it.
- Nazarene Youth Conference '03
This quote reminds me of all the little miracles that have happened around me. Well in the last year I guess I should say big miracles. God is amazing but only if we look in the right spot. If we are looking for manna to fall from heaven we may miss something as simple as a friend handing us a bottle of water when we are thirsty. Miracles happen all the time just sometimes we are too preoccupied looking for big miracles that we miss the little ones that happen everyday.

There you go Food for thoughts, I hope that you enjoyed the quotes as much as I did. I love quotes and poems so I have a very big collection and I hope to share some more in the future.

Manthania and Mom

Ok Sorry Mom if you don't like this picture but I do so I took the liberty of putting it on my blog

I like this picture because it is of my mom and my little sister. And if you haven't already guessed I am going to tell you all about my mom. First of all most kids will tell you that there mom has always been there for them. My mom was there even when I didn't want her. Just like most teenagers I went through the stage where I didn't want my mom to be anywhere I was and I argued with her all the time. My Sophmore year in high school the Jazz band that I was a part of took a trip to New Orleans. Inorder for me to let mom go she had to tell me that Mr.Barnett ask her to go, really she just wanted to go with me.

Anyway I really want to tell you about something else and that is how great my mom's love for God is. See when my mom went to Haiti in June she hadn't yet heard God's call to adopt Manthania and so that means my mom has yet to see and hold Manthania knowing that she is her mother. And yet my mom let me go instead of her in December. And she is letting me go again in 23 days knowing that God has laid Haiti and Three Angels on my heart. Yet she still isn't going and for now she is happy knowing that she is going in April. My mother is full of God and I am glad that she listens to him for direction, if she hadn't I may have not had the oppurtunity to go in Decmber. I hope that one day I can be just like her.

Thank you God for putting a wonderful example in front of me and thank you for being with my Mom and comforting her when she misses my sister. I hope that I can serve you with all the stregth that she does. Please God bless her and keep her strong when she doesn't think she can be. And as always bless Manthania and the other 29 kids that are with her, keep them safe and healthy. I Love you!

Katie!!!!!!!!!!!

About four years ago I met this girl named Katie Friedman. When I met her she was really quiet and to tell you the truth we really didn't talk alot the first year we knew each other. My junior year changed that. See Katie and I were both invloved in the Swid District Impact team so really we only saw each other about once a month. My entire life I have been friends with Matt Upshaw and junior was a year that we were really good friends. The two of us did everything together and Impact was just one of them. At Impact Matt and I would hang out with Sondra Lynn, Phill Warren, and John Chambers, along with John came his girlfriend Katie. So the six of looked forward to our once a month visits more than anything. Durning junior year Katie and I became pretty close and I found out that she wanted to be a missionary. At that point in time I had no idea what I wanted to do with me life but still at that point missionary was not on my mind. I was still stuck more worried about the drama of high school. Senior year was just another year I get to spend waiting for the once a month trio to impact where Igot to spend time talking to Katie. There is no other way to put it other than she amazes me. On the three years that we have been good friends she has helped me more than anyone I know. I feel like the people I meet on Impact and especially her are the easiest to turn to and I often turn to them before my friends around here because of the bond that God created between us.

Late October or Early November was the last time I talked to Katie, it seems like we are real good friends right? But if you knew the two of us you know that how we work and that the next time we talk it for like 5 hours and then we have to talk again the next week for even longer. But this time we couldn't talk that long for other reasons. Before I went to Haiti all my thoughts were on getting to Haiti with all the stuff people had given to my family. Then I was in Haiti not the best time for 5 hour conversations on the phone, actually its not the best place for communication at all. When I got back I was so busy and once again was thinking of Haiti. On top of that Christmas came and then two days after christmas Katie left for Africa and she doesn't get back until the 13th of January. But I can't wait to get to hear about Africa and tell her all about Haiti. We share a special bond that lasts even if we don't see each other every day or even once a month. I know that if I ever need anyone that she will be there. I also know that God put her here as my friend for another reason. Everytime I am worried about the whole missionary thing she is there. She knows what I am feeling and always asures me that God is not going to test me more than I could bear and he isn't going to give me a call that I can't handle. Anyway I love you Katie and thanks for everthing you have done for me. I hope that Africa was amazing and I can't wait until you are home!